I think I just got into an argument with my boyfriend....
And yeah, I DID just get a boyfriend, pretty recently.
Well, I think we're still arguing.
The reason? It's me. No sugarcoat whatsoever, it really WAS my fault.
Because I'm selfish, vain and overbearing. Basically, because I'm ME.
Well, truth is, what he said struck a particular nerve.
He said "Sinong nag ma may-ari sau, cge nga (You belong to who, huh?)". It was a question I was not particularly prepared to answer at the moment, you know.
So I replied "I refuse to 'belong' to anyone, if u insist to know, that is how it was, how it is, how it ALWAYS will be. Amen."
And again, YES, I knew that that would make him pissed for a few days or so. Hell, I knew it was going to start a rift in our new and rather delicate relationship. And you know what, I still sent the freakin' message knowing all that.
And his mood did change. Figures.
So yeah, that's why I said it was my fault.
Am I sorry? I'm sorry for hurting him, but I'm not quite sorry for telling him the truth.
Actually at the moment I'm feeling quite detached from everything. He said he was just trying to be sweet, I get that, I even understand that, but I still got pretty damn pissed.
I guess it was the fact that it felt like I was being acknowledged as an object to be owned that got to me. I've never been particularly fond of the line "you are mine". I let it slide every once in a while, but he implied it more than once today and I'm not in a very forgiving mood today.
Well, I wasn't. Until just now...
You know what he said? He said his feelings won't change no matter what I do....and you know what, I think I just fell a bit more for him.
It's twisted, isn't it? That I fell for a guy I'm pretty sure I hurt like hell using a few words?
Well, like i said, I think we're still arguing. So I'll leave this post be for the momentand get back to it when the said argument's over.
