Have you ever....

Wanted to cry for a lot of reasons and yet for no reason at all?
COnfusing? Yeah, I know.
I kinda feel like that right now. I thought I was way past all these angsting. I mean, I'm not exactly a teen anymore, so it would be kinda stupid to act like I'm in puberty (thank GOD I'm over that), so why am I still feeling like this?
Honestly.
You know I'm trying to keep myself together, but lately I just feel so tired of it all...
Suicidal? Not anymore, I don't think so. I see my future ahead of me, and I want it, I want to hold it, so I wanna live for it at the moment, it's just that I feel so tired already...
Cliche as it sounds, I'm also trying to keep my face happy, or impassive at the very least, but there are just moments when I just wanna cry and scream it all out.
And I can't.
Haha. As of the moment, I'm in a position where I feel so suffocated and alone and pressured and.... just so tired...
I understand that there are people who are going through much worse than this, and I admire them for being strong. I want to be that strong too, but it gets hard when there isn't anyone beside me to lean on to when I'm feeling like this.
I don't have many friends to begin with.
My family is probably one of the reasons why I'm feeling like this.
My bestfriend is in Canada and it's so hard to find a common time.
No, I got no boyfriend.
And school's a bitch, you know that.
So yeah. I'm pouring my heart out over ths blog that no one would read, just so I can let all these out..