abandoned children,,

guys, this is another one,, i wrote this last sunday, i think, but since i was offline that day, i couldn't publish anything, well, you don't have to read this if you don't want to.. this was just a sort of emotional outburst!
wah!!
June 30, 2007
Saturday, 10:04 pm

Just watched Jessica Sojo Reports and my heart is breaking whenever I remember the last part of it.
It’s late, and my parents probably will be scolding me anytime soon, but I don’t think I’ll be able to sleep unless I pour this out on something…
It’s hard to say the whole thing in English; I’ll do my best but no promises.
Anyway, the last report was about abandoned children, some of them special children. It breaks my heart when I think of how parents can do that to their own flesh and blood. Well, to me, it’s not just a matter of being a parent, but a matter of being human. I mean, how can anyone just abandon a mindless infant somewhere, or even think of killing it? (Sometime in the report, mentioned something about a mother almost flushing her baby in the fast food toilet)
Some of the abandoned children, as I’ve mentioned, are special, if you get my drift. I really don’t know what to say because my siblings as well as my other relatives are all normal, but still. Why can’t some people understand the reason we call them special?
I really just don’t understand how anyone could have the heart to leave anything living somewhere and completely abandon it. I mean, I could just be overly emotional about this, like the time my brother found a kitten on our backyard, and I wanted to keep it but my Mom said we can’t so she had it thrown somewhere, and I had to take moments to myself so that I could cry (and that was just a kitten), but to be honest, I think anyone who doesn’t think that abandoning a human baby is cruel must be completely heartless.
I really should not be judging people like this, no one should, but I can’t help being disappointed at the mothers who could do such a thing (I refuse to use the word angry). Like what I’ve said, it’s no longer just the matter of being a parent, but of being human. Of course, some of them might be thinking that if they don’t do that, they might not be able to raise their children properly and the kids will probably end up in some situation wherein monetary matters become some problem, but still… to leave your child under the bus seat? What if the kid gets stepped on or something? Under the taxi seat? What if by some unfortunate incident the taxi gets into an accident or something?
Some use the excuse of not being ready. Well damn hell. They should’ve thought about that when they were still in bed doing the dirty with some boy, now shouldn’t they? Some people just seem too absorbed in themselves, thinking of nothing but pleasure ignoring all the responsibilities that should come with the freedom they have that they chose to use with their bodies. Jeez, I sound like some old lady.
Part of me, however, is telling me that I should still be somehow thankful to the mothers of those children. Why? Because they still bore them and gave them the chance to live, if only to give them away. I mean, recently a friend showed me this site where you can find pics of aborted children, and I tell you, it makes me want to thank my parents of how grateful I am that they let me live, and I’m not even that thankful to be alive. Somehow, at least, they hadn’t had the heart to take the children’s chances at life before they even began. I could go on and on with this, especially how I totally dislike countries that legalized abortion, but that would take too long and I don’t think anyone would like to read a long blog.
I really am doing my best to understand the women and the situations they must be in to do something like that, but for some reason part of me is screaming at me that it’s just plainly wrong, it’s against all humane values, all humane emotions, against every and any reason we are called humans in the first place. (I know I should have taken a major in Philosophy or something with Psychology instead of Engineering)
While watching those kid’s faces on TV, I just can’t help feeling all teary, and I’m really hoping that the mothers of those children don’t get a good night’s sleep tonight because honestly I don’t think I will, and I’m not even a parent yet.